The road to recovery when we start to heal from our addiction to work and overwhelm can be a bit scary at first. We are venturing into the unknown in a sense. It has been so long since we have lived healthy balanced lives that we forget how it feels. Perhaps we never lived a life that was free from addiction, so we have no concept at all of how it is to live in serenity and calm. We must have faith in ourselves when we don’t have a clear path to follow. When we don’t know where we are going or how we will get there, we must trust in the process.
On this topic, Anne Wilson Schaef writes:
“It is especially difficult for women who do too much to consider willingly entering the unknown. Like any addict, we like to keep everything under control, and we certainly don’t want even to start a journey without an accurate road map. Unfortunately, recovery doesn’t work that way. Recovery is a leap of faith.
Most of us, because we grew up in dysfunctional families, work in addictive settings, and live in an addictive society, don’t have experiential knowledge of what it’s like to live our process, live sobriety, or live out of our clarity. Yet many people are making that leap of faith and taking the first step on the road to recovery. We know that there has to be something better. We have a vague recollection of something. We can’t quite remember what it is, and we know it is there. One of the true present-day miracles is that so many are beginning recovery when we really have no clear idea of what recovery is.”
I know that when I started down this road I had no idea what it would be like to live a sober life again, free from the distractions I used to numb myself to the pressures of everyday life. I could barely remember how it felt to be calm and present in each moment. To not be stressed to my breaking point and on the verge of lashing out or collapsing into tears. I had to believe that things would be okay, people would still respect me, I wouldn’t lose my job or my friends if I started to say no and prioritize myself for awhile. I had to believe that even though I couldn’t remember how to live without stress, I was capable of doing so. It takes time and a great deal of effort, and continues to be an ongoing process, but before any of that, it first took belief, trust, hope and a willingness to begin. Healing is a journey that starts with faith.